“Did you tell her how you really feel and how you hid your feelings for years?” he asked me
“No i can’t i won’t. She will never want me” i said
“What makes you say that?” he asked me
“Kevin i..”
“You what Joe…you what?”
“She hates me!” i said
“SHE DOES NOT!!” i stood up and pulled him out.
“Sit here we’ll talk later and please…just please…ditching her that day was the worst thing i could have ever done!” i said running my hand through my hair. “I never even explained why…she wouldn’t answer my calls..or texts..or e-mails…or even her door. Nothing worked and she moved and that was it!!!! I NEVER GOT TO EXPLAIN WHY I WASN’T AT THE LAKE THAT DAY! That day…was supposed to be the start of everything. And now…im older and i thought i was wiser but im not.” i walked into her room and she was sititng up and she looked at me tears in her eyes.”Lillyanna?”
“I dont understand why you left…i never wanted to know but now i do want to know. I want to know why you left me! Why you left your bestfriend…” she said. She groaned and a monitor started beeping. I looked at her with all the concern and love in my eyes but nothin could mirror her pain. “Jo..joe get get…ow!!” she screamed grabbing her side.
“Lillyanna whats wrong?!”
“Doctor!” she yelled pressing the button. I rushed out and found a doctor just as some code was being announced over the loud speaker. I sat down and started crying. I dont know what to do. I’ve made so many dumb mistakes and i have no clue how to fix what i made a mess of. I love her. Nick and Kevin rushed over to me and then Samantha who i havent seen in ages pulled me into a hug.
“JOE!” she shrekied.
“H…hi” i laughed away the tears.”Its been too long Sammy” i said
“Joe…she missed you so much. There were days when i found her sitting in her room looking through scrapbooks of every thing you two did together. I could’ve sworn i heard her say she loved you or something.”
“What?”
“I dont know..bottom line she missed you like crazy and wouldnt shut up about you.”
“Oh goodness.” i hit my head with my hand “Well…would you mind explaining who Logan is and what the he did to her?”
“You ready to hear it?” she asked me
“Let me hear it” i said
:Alright danger”
**end pov**
**Kevins pov**
Never in my life have i seen Joe so messed up and lovestruck. After the doctors came back and told us we could see her after testing we let out sighs of relief. Samy decided to go home she was tired and she had a photo shoot tomorrow. We walked in and Joe and Nick sat down on the couch to soon fall asleep. I sat down against her hospital bed and sighed. She opened her eyes and smiled
“Hey Kevo”
“Hey there” i smiled “So…how ya feeling?”
“Fine now…what happened?”
“A blood vessel popped and they had to stitch you up like a quilt.” i said pulling the blankets off her and showing her the stitches on her side.
“Eeew” i chuckled “He looks so adorable when hes asleep”
“Are we referring to Joe over there? Your secret love?” she hit my arm playfully. “Dont act like it isn’t true bubbles.”
“Kevo i haven’t heard that since..”
“Since..campfire crowd firday night at camp years back. I know i missed you.” i said
“I missed you too.”
“Please dont be mad at Joe..please…he really really messed up and he knows it. But he missed you terribly. Lillyanna hes in love with you but you wont give him the time of day. Hes been so down he needs someone…he needs you.” i said
“I need him too i need my danger back.” she said brushing away tears. A doctor came in and told us we could realease her is she kept of her feet and took things easy. I nodded and agreed and signed the realease papers while she got dressed. I woke up my brothers and she walked over to Joe.
**end pov**
**Lillyannas pov**
I caught Kevins excited grin out of the corner of my eye and walked over to Joe. He was about to say something when i wrapped my arms around him in and unexpected hug. I held him close and felt the tears pooling my eyes. He sighed and hugged me back.
“I missed you butterscotch”
“You remebered?”
“Of course” he said. “I missed you more than you’ll ever know.” he unwound his arms and i kept mine where they were. He chuckled and unwound them for me. I stretched up to kiss his cheek but i collapsed and he caught me. “Easy..take it easy” he said helping me to my feet and keeping his arm tight around me as we walked to the car. I slid in and he slid in next to me. The ride home was silent but Joe the insisted on staying with me at my house. Luke made up the couch but Joe being Joe he brought the cushions up to my room and made a bed on the floor. I struggled with my shirt and grabbed a pair of scissors.
“Ahh whoa!” He came over and slipped my shirt off gently then turned around. I blushed beat red and carefully put on a shirt and cotton shorts.
Duration : 0:1:2
Video I made of Crosby Stills Nash & Young playing Almost Cut My Hair live at Wembley 1974 and the story of Easy Rider starring Peter Fonda & Dennis Hopper.
the audio is something i recorded early this month
